FUCK YOU

I want to just shove nails under my fingernails right now I am so aggrivated. I don't understand the point of making someone feel guilty because you think they are ignoring you. Making me feel guilty is only going to actually piss me the fuck right off and make me NOT want to be around someone. I'm in a terrible fucking mood, I want to rip my throat open because of my stupid fucking tonsils still bothering me, and I can't even spend a quiet day at home. I have to fucking stand up on a stool and announce how joyful I am that my girlfriend is home. Yes, she had a shitty fucking day at work. Yes, she deserves to be given attention. But maybe instead of just making me feel guilty about it she should, oh I don't know, take some initiative and try talking to me instead of giving me fucking attitude. Seriously, right now I want to fucking slit my wrists open just so I can stop fucking feeling any of this. My throat, the attitude, this fucking bullshit weather, time just slipping away like it always does, it's all just so fucking pointless and ridiculous. Why do we even bother with any of it? We're a dying race of morons, running in hampster wheels, content to just keep on running and never stopping and wondering WHY we're running. Fuck you. Fuck all of you. You are all fucking pathetic and I want to fucking smash your faces in. I'm tired of all of this shit. I just want to have ONE FUCKING MINUTE for myself where I do not feel like I'm being pulled in every fucking direction, even by my own fucking stupid twisted brain that can't just IGNORE MY FUCKING TONSILS like it is supposed to do but instead it just keeps on reminding me that they are back there, tickling the back of my throat, making me feel like I am going to choke on them even though they are perfectly fine when I look at them.

FUCK YOU